Time Flies When You're Having Fun

             So I have decided that there must be something wrong  with my calendar. There were some  days that I thought that this time would never come but now that it is here all that I want to do is turn back time and have this year all over again, late nights long hours and all. Canyon has been such as wonderful experience where I have been able to not only grow as a teacher but as a person as well. The people that i have come to know during this year have been a lasting impact on me. My team has been so much more than I could have ever asked for. They also put up with my silly questions, my need for help and direction. I knew that despite the fact that they all had crazy schedules, I could go to any of these amazing ladies and ask for help on a lesson, a management issue or to just bounce ideas off of. I have learned so much from them over the past year.

           Then there is my dear sweet kids, because they are so much more than just my students that I have the honor of instructing six hours a day.  There is no possible way that I only have one week left with my sweet second graders! I have so much left to teach them, so much more I want them to know and understand not just with school but in life as well. I have seen these student blossom throughout the year. Students who I could hardly get to speak at the beginning of the year I now have a hard time getting quiet sometimes. :) I have celebrated at their successes and accomplishments as if they were my own. Their heartbreaks were my heartbreaks.  The thought of letting them go, of trusting someone else with my “kids” is difficult, but the knowledge that I will probably never see any of them again is downright heartbreaking. Sometimes I catch myself watching them and wonder what type of person each of them will become. I hope that in some small way I have made an impact in their lives because I know without any doubt that each of them has made a lasting impact on mine. As I look back at where I was last year when I was deciding which district that I would apply to to have an internship in I had a very strong feeling that for some reason it needed to be Nebo and now I know why. I needed to be here, at this school with these students because of the wonderful influence that THEY have had on ME. They have reminded me how to love in an unconditional way that somehow adults seem to loose throughout the years. They have tested my patience beyond what I thought I could handle some days (and heavens knows that some of them test it more than others), they have taught me compassion and the importance of forgiveness and to laugh at myself and never take anything too seriously. So for all of the hours spent staying late,  writing lesson plans,  getting materials ready I still feel as though they have given me more than I could have ever dreamed. Three more years with these group of kids wouldn’t be enough, never mind a measly  week. I am going to be a complete basket case when the end comes because I can’t even right this journal entry without crying at the mere thought of leaving them.